When way closes, way will open

I find myself in the wee hours of the morning unwinding and preparing to sleep on a camping cot in the apartment of child #4.
My daughter is preparing to move south to the Bay area about 12 hours from here.
She has a tendency to be a bit of a sentimental pack rat.
Nearly 6 months ago, when I learned this move would be a possibility I mentioned she should 'purge' some belongings.
We have talked and danced around the topic of cleaning out. We have even joked about her boarder line similarities to the program on cable titled, Hoarders.
I told her I would help her sort, clean, & pack if she needed it.


A few days ago she called.
However, we are no longer are months away from her move.
She is down to a few weeks left.


So I am staying at her place tonight.
I think we've accomplished quite a bit. At least, She is thrilled with the progress we are making.
I, on the other hand, am nervous. I am concerned we will not get the tasks ahead completed in time.
Hence the late night, 2:30am blogging.


I am trying to embrace this idea of 'When way closes, Way opens.'
Being unemployed for a year now seems impossible.
Over 12 months have passed and I struggle with understanding what have I accomplished?
What have I contributed to the family?
What have I cost the family?
Is there more I could/should be doing financially?
...and so many other questions...


I have asked myself multiple times if I am missing out on important opportunities.
I have periodically looked for a new job.
I have considered if leaving my former job was the right thing to do.
I have thought back to what I have learned in previous jobs and,
wondered if I learned all I could,
wondered if i learned everything I needed to learn when working,
wondered where the new year was leading me.
But as I picked up a book I read last January I was reminded, I don't have answers and that's okay.


"When 'way' closes,
'Way' opens."


The 'way' that has opened ahead enables me to take the time to help sort, clean, recycle, toss out and most importantly spend time with adult children I would not have found other wise.


Oh, and we managed to squeeze in a bit of time for fun as well!
Good night all.
Or perhaps I should say,
Good Morning!



- Posted by DWNTWN

Location:SW Columbia St,Portland,United States